journaling | edit

As an experiment and based on Derek Sivers and Daily Stoic recommendations, I started journaling daily with a single sentence (or two). Unsure where it will go from there, but we shall see.

2022-07-06: Right now, I'm feeling at cross roads regarding my long term goals of living out of nothing or providing a regular life for my children.

2022-07-07: It was rainy this morning and bike commute was quite wet, I'm due for a new jacket. Got a really nice canadiano (really just an americano) this morning with 4 (!) shots of espresso.

2022-07-08: Just re-read Ultralight by Leo Babauta this morning, to keep me aligned on my goal to live lightly. I struggle a lot when it comes to not look for better things that add up on the burden.

2022-07-09: Having many short-burst talks with my wife (because toddler!), we are aligning our thoughts and goals together once again.

2022-07-10: Taking a slow day is quite nice, kids enjoy being with you, wife appreciates the lifestyle and I am fulfilled with happiness.

2022-07-11: Started to read my first book about Buddhism, to see things as they are. Also, moving in a larger apartment soon.

2022-07-12: I'm keeping up with my goal to stop reading the news since more than a week now. Hopefully, I'll keep it as is forever.

2022-07-13: Wife had to go to the hospital with the little one today, luckily it is OK. Otherwise, I'm about to sell the car, after super expensive repair has been done.

2022-07-14: Not super hungry these days, unsure why. Unsure if I should go car-free or replace my car with a lower value one.

2022-07-15: as I’m typing this, waiting for a flight departing at midnight. Changing a routine is what I should aim for.

2022-07-16: Travelling from QC to east of Sault Ste. Marie, about 900 km today. Lots of good talks with by fellow traveller.

2022-07-17: Travelling up to west of Moorhead, Minnesota, about 1150 km today. Discovered Murising, Michigan as a really nice spot to come back to later.

2022-07-18: Travelling up to Drummond, Montana, about 1450 km. Pure sickness!

2022-07-19: Travelling up to North Vancouver, about 1060 km. Stuck in the obvious traffic of Seattle, otherwise quite a nice drive!

2022-07-20: Back in our small space with an extra family member, difficult to manage, but we will move soon in a larger unit.

2022-07-21: Went to the beach, slept for a bit, then head back to our place for a slow-paced afternoon.

2022-07-22: Tried to organise our somewhat overflowing locker unit, but gave up as we are in-between homes and lot of stuff is listed for sale anyway.

2022-07-23: Went for a quick hike with kids today, it was nice and fun to be in nature, but quite crowded sadly.

2022-07-24: About to list the car for sale, removing accessories and cleaning it makes me realise it is a huge pain to deal with.

2022-07-25: I started to plan a 2-month US road trip with my wife and kids for next year.

2022-07-26: I find interesting most of the tech stuff I read online, especially when it is unusual (jailbreaking an Apple TV 2nd gen per example or installing MacOS on an Apple TV 1st gen), but why do I have the need to replicate it? I don't need that additional complexity in my life, that will result in a dead object sooner than later.

2022-07-27: Did a 30km bike ride late at night again. It feels nicer than biking during the day because there is less cars, less noise, less crazyness, just pure joy of riding.

2022-07-28: I continue my trip to downsizing my mental load to a mindful state by reducing tech dependency and life expectations. I still think about living in a small town in BC with the bare minimum so my kids can learn real life, disconnected from a virtual world.

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2022-08-01: Totally forgot about journaling for 3 days in a row... well it was my birthday yesterday (if that's an excuse).

2022-08-02: Ordered an old 14" iBook G4 (same generation than my first mac that was a 12" iBook) on eBay because I fell for the retrocomputing thing again (last one was with an 2006 MacBook Pro). Will probably just install the bare minimum on it and a few games.

2022-08-03: Also thinking about getting an old 11" MacBook Air from 2015 as a daily driver.

2022-08-04: I can't wait to move to a larger unit since we are now 5 living in 540 square feet. Struggling is too weak of a word now. At the same time, we need to come up with a mid-term solution on where we want to move and buy a property when the market goes down.

2022-08-05: Going camping this weekend with a new large tent. Will try to work remotely with little to none access to power.

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2022-08-07: Got a deal on a 11" MacBook Air (Early-2015), for CA$250. It supports Monterey, but is expected to be dropped for Ventura, but I don't really care. I like the even smaller form factor than the MacBook Air 2020.

2022-08-08: Camping since two days without cellphone coverage is awesome. Dipped late at night in the river, surrounded by nature, no sound except the current, meditating on a rock for a bit.

2022-08-09: Working remotely from a coffee shop, I feel like a nomad. Struggling if that is a thing I would like on the long term, but it is still an awesome routine.

2022-08-10: Sitting in an indie coffee shop to work again, a guy is playing guitar, decor is awesome and the village is quiet as it should be. Need to turn my life to this type of work, play, rest, stay.

2022-08-11: Probably our last day of a 5-day camp trip, last night had a great thunderstorm. This morning, I had a great chat with a guy at the campground, reminding me of the benefits to connect to people in nature.

2022-08-12: Turned out the guy from yesterday is all out in conspiracies. HAARP modifying the climate with chem trails, government lies about everything, news are not telling us the truth. As most would have done, I'm not trying to avoid the guy, but I question my own behaviour towards the information that is provided to me all the time (related to my want to stop reading news). Truth lies between this guy and the obvious channels of infotainment.

2022-08-13: Using the new-to-me MacBook Air from 2015 is a real charm. USB-A plug so I can use a USB thumb drive to do manual backup, MagSafe connector instead of a USB-C for power, keyboard feel is awesome, battery life is still a good 7 hours (quite pale compared to 15+ hours of the M1 MacBook Air, but still), plus it can take a beating and I barely care since I paid $250 for it. Thinking about selling the newer MBA for about $1,000. Should I? I feel like hacking the hedonic treadmill.

2022-08-14: Unable to keep my mind calm at all time of the day is what I really struggle with right now. Had a stupid argument with my wife over stupid stuff. Felt bad about it, still am. I now feel that in my fight against mindlessness, I'm somewhat mindless too.

2022-08-15: Biked to work today with a longer commute (22 km one-way), feels good even though my morning routine for a long ride isn't streamlined. I struggle to pack efficiently.

2022-08-16: Having kids change me so much more than I expected. I crave for their smiles, and at the same time I can't stand to hear them crying. I struggle with living in a small space with toys all over the place, but I enjoy having fun with them outside. I hate the benefits provided to the mother (maternity and parental leave) as it assumes you don't need your full wage during your time off work, which is plain stupid in today's world.

2022-08-17: Already sold back the iBook G4 I got for $10 more than what I paid for. Slim margin, but I changed my mind about collecting old stuff and the condition of the laptop was not so great. eBay listings are always hit and miss.

2022-08-18: Even tough I bike to work since a few days, I feel full of energy in the morning. The issue is in the middle of the day, at work, where I just want to sleep on a park bench under the sun.